lonliness

2010-07-06T23:01:00.001-07:00

History repeats itself again and again..
I just don think i belong here!
Months passed but with no quality..
The ly was so believable..
How can u?
Thats how much u cared for me!

2010-03-03T07:29:00.000-08:00

No one can promise they’ll never hurt you,
because at one time or another they will.
The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in end..

Feeling the same pain again..
I really need sme1 to cry out..
m i that bad after all...??

2010-01-20T00:04:00.000-08:00

You just repeat it again n again..
Do u understand hw i feel..
Anger builds in..
But its just heart breaking some1 who suppose to encourage u keep PUTTING U DOWN..
O CRAB

2010-01-17T20:35:00.000-08:00

Have not been blogging for a very long time..
Just too busy with school stuff..
Result out..
trying to cope..

No one really understands how i feel...
Whenever i want to cry my heart out to some1 whethere in msn or in real they just give me this "I DON CARE" ATTITUDE which really hurts...
Do they know the feeling of being in between to groups of friends..
Just hearing the word useless really affects a person with good self esteem..

Being a President of a cca in a secondary school is much easier to handle...
This is much harder..
I cant leave both but i want both thats for sure..

Lost friends whom i thought will always be my side..
Just so suprising hw people see u just so invisible even if u r right in front of their eyes..
Who exactly are frens..
Those who actually stay by your side when u really need them
So where exactly are they i needed them..

Its not my fault that i want to be in this state..
I now i am Stressed but its my job to cope both..
Went to NuH ( never gg to visit that place again)
Gt a follow up to attend..May be a councellor should help me..
I am just afraid i will do something to myself in anger or depression..

O god Help me=)

Since Jan 1 til Jan 18 WAR..
never endingl..
thats just so sad

2009-11-20T06:54:00.000-08:00

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her that i want with CONFIDENCE ...

2009-11-08T04:05:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was muzamils Birthday=)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUZAMIL...
may all ur wishes come true!
keep smiling..

Morning wasnt feeling ok..
But still i had no choice but to go for bcls training..
i finshe the practical fast and score 27/30 for my thoery..
then reached home by 2. 30
i walked back home with wanie..
its started raining..

changed and went to meet rias..
poor boy waited like 30 hr for me..
my sweetest best fren..
then went holland
Was super fun with the clique..(as usual) ate the slacked

karthi
muzamil
poo
vanitha
vanitha sis
priya
rias
maran

After i reached home at 1045 change and went moulmein for bhajans...
Reached home like 2 am..
Missed how i was b4..
haha
nvm i will change
yeah!!
the old me!!

Sometimes things can be changed...
It depends on individual
Whether they want to make a change for themselves..
I am stubborn in what i do....
Despite the advices i got i decided to go against the wind direction facing all dangers that is going to occur..

2009-10-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

long time since i blog=)

lots of things happened..
Jeeva gaanam 09
it was a stepping stone for me..
thought me maturity
really had lots of fun..
i can nvr forget jg 09

Deepavali 09
17 oct
Had fun..
Afternoon family visits..
Grandma place- muzi maran rias came over
met karthi at clementi
kumaran came driving to fetch us..
we went maran house wait till he change then off to priyashaleni house
left her crib then went satish house
kumaran drop me maran thaslim karthi at jurong west
later 3 of them join us at satish house.
A good game of cards then left..

18 oct
My house open house..
frens all came
isaac n priyalatha first 1 to come
after that as usual all of us did our routine
thaslim
jeevan
priyelatha
isaac
priyashaleni
mythili
maran
surrendran
all overnighted in my house..
next day we woke up n went school together...

2009-09-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

i am really disturbed
this is not what i want...
i am getting weaker day by day..
the only thing i do is keep CRYING..
i know nothing will be solved by that..
But u will never realise that its cause of u..
i cant help it..

its
My fault for assuming all..
My fault for thinkin all that was true..
My fault for all the imaginations that i made..

May be i should maintain my distance cause i donno the way u see me...
But i promise that the way i see u is as someone really special to me..
I am sorry but i cant change this part of me...

I don Care abt the negative things ppl tell me abt u..
Cause i still trust u are not like that..
How much they advice me i tried changing, but is of no use

i am sorry..
a

2009-08-25T10:18:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE MY IMPERFECT SWEETEST ADDICTION=)

Today was my last paper yohoo..

so damn happy..
when seoul garden to have my dinner with the GALS..
Something that i would never wanna miss in my life.. gifted to have classmates like them..
i love all of u gals..i don really spend time with them nowdays bec of my other frens but i miss my times wit them..i just forget all my sadness with them around.

My friends..
Ppl i really love will just leave me and go..
Afraid to call anyone as my close frens..
but i afraid i have too

Rias
Someone who i can say understand me the most but not 100%
he knows when i am sad, angry , depressed.
He knows how to make me laugh=)

Priya
Someone i really treasure in my life.
i love to make her smile.
she makes my day..
i have been seeing her EVERYDAY except 1 day since the day i got close to her..
love u babe=)

Thaslim
Someone who i couldnt get along with at the start..
Now we are close..
Never thought of things will change this way..
Super adorable gal who is super cute when she gets angry..=)

Mavin

My cab buddy in yr 1..he is a comedy=)
always bullying me and calling me kaka..

Jeevan
My best fren..
Someone who really plays along with my jokes..
someone who makes fun of me but never meant it..
i hope our frenship grows my Best fren=)

Elamaran
someone who always disturbs me..
who burnts my hand and throw me around..
who use me a subject to make people laugh
But i belief he is An awesome fren that i can count on when i am in trouble..
someone who knowledgable of nearly everything..=)

kayyathri
A fren who is nice...
who has a lot of stories to share, and generous..
every1 loves to be around her!=)

Muzzamil
MUZi! someone who is really nice to talk to..
we have alot of same thoughts in our mind..

karthi
Someone who really advices me on everything..
A good fren that i have got..=)

Those frens who left me..
I love u guys..
The feeling without u guys are different..
Firstly i am sorry if i did anything wrong..
You guys stood for me when i was in trouble ,depressed and all..
Tried so hard for me to to forget things..
I will never forget that..
u guys are a part of my life till now..
missing u guys..
esp the person who loves to put paper in my bag=)

DARED
-i got a belly peircing done recently like 2 weeks..most of my classmates has it i was motivated by them to go get it...we were darring enough to bare the pain..i was so nervous and shaking when he was holding on to the needle.. A great experience..

2009-08-22T09:54:00.000-07:00

hello
today was bhuvanesh akka's rom..
two individuals unite as one.
time flies..
all my cousins getting married one by one=)

was super fun
as usual..
Dance floor was a blast..
met my primary school fren nusriin..
all grown up..

A Cute Guy Can Open Up My Eyes, A Smart Guy Can Open Up My Mind,But Only A Sweet Guy Can Open My Heart.

2009-08-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

Don't be too good i will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too sweet, I might fall.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...=(

2009-08-08T21:19:00.000-07:00

hello people..

i have not been blogging for a very long time..
let me start

8th aug
met sandy devi siva and sandy's fren..
went for dance arena..
was a little boring but at least i gt to meet them..
haha
was waiting for vignesh to pick me up..
he is so nice=)
then went to sch..
saw the rest
maran
jeevan
thaslim
priya
maithili akka
kayyathri
rias..
some were in one state..
later maran thaslim jeevan and priya took cab to my house..
we met them near the pasar malam..
those ppl were SUPER CUTE!!!
then wennt home..
had dance pract..
haiyo till 5 am..
then slept for a while..
jeevan and maran continued their HOBBY..
the rest slept..
mornin the naughty boy MARAN cannot wake up..
we like trying to wake him up but no response..
we had to put his pants all for him..
but he managed to dance after that..
the dance was super nice(kumbida pona deivam)

2009-08-07T08:34:00.000-07:00

hmm people i really treasure don really understand me..
it hurts sometimes..
when issues are so small it just blow up...
don they understand hw i really feel...
i dont thibk they care abt me as much as i do..

problems
i don really tell ppl wat i feel..
i failed my practical exam today..
being the only 1 who failed in class...
just imagine..
but i din even show any1 that i was sad or anything..
when i was angry and fustrated i din even show my frens my anger..
i always make a fool out of myself just to make them smile..
now days wen i get hme i don really talk to my family..
i spend more time with them n now i realise that they don know me well..
i never had wat i love permanant in life..
NO COMMENTS..
i only can cry...
but i know its no use..
i hopw 1 day i will be really happy will all i want..

2009-08-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

sunday
had dance prac at home..
maran
jeevan
rias
priya
maitali
murali
had so much fun..
had fried rice and nuggurts 4 dinner..

monday
nothing much
tiring day..
sch ended at 4
had dance practice..
all the usual ppl..
faaiz came to visit us..

wed
drinking day..
hmm ppl
So funny..
dinging auditions
kishore is super cute..

thursday
sch ended at 4
went 4 practice..
maran bought donuts...
SUPER NICE!!!
they were all laughing at me dance...
they are awesome ppl in my life..
will never forget them..
ill always treasure them..

2009-08-01T22:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a very fun day..
went for SHIVESHVEL's naming ceremony..
reached there like 7..
all the cousins occupied a table..
uma
rathi
revathi
rekha
renukha
sathish
anand
vicky
free flow of drinks...
haha
all the liquor and everything..
left wit the guys and me..
all the rest left..
Dance floor was AWESOME..
i NEVER dance like that in my life..
shortly my parents also join us..
super fun..
all were in a any time vomit state..
super funny..
an unforgetable day

2009-07-29T22:44:00.000-07:00

helllooo
very long time since i bloggg...
little busy..
will updaten soon...

2009-07-26T07:54:00.000-07:00

saturday
thanu and gayathri came over wit straw berried and kfc breakfast..
haha..
then slept a while..
priya joined us.
we deciede to go yew tee to meet maran.
thaslim met us at yew tee together wir sugar.
while waiting 4 maran we called mavin.,
he said he will meet us soon.
but maran call us and said he overslept and he was late 4 match..
we din meet him..
we took the bus to go cck then had a call frm mavin saying that he waitin 4 us at uew tee,
we got down the bus..
mavin had to leave so we went went lot 1..
sugar left..
then we went to cck..
met hajii there..
i went to pierce my ear
thaslim and priya also wanted to pierce their ear..
afte that haji bought kfc back to my house
we met karthi at the lrt..
karthi claims that i live in another country and need passport to enter..
haha
all of them came to my house.
a while later went to fajat to buy mac..
we met ghax and kayyathri there.
then went back to my house..
jeevan and maran joined us there..
no one was home so it was super fun..
all left like 10 plus..
kayyyathri stayed over..

2009-07-18T23:36:00.000-07:00

maran's story=)

Maran did nt come so we ended up drinking.. and i picked up smoking..

sigh... feel like killing everyone around me and take their money to drink and die...

then haji came to the rescue by pulling away the toothpick which i was holdin onto but i donno how he came to know abt my perfectly planned plan... he then stabbed me and took my beer... then when i opened my eyes i realised i was jus dreamin.. but no i was in the hospital wid alot of ppl around me but i donno them sia.. i asked the doctor for rokok... He told me fuck u!!! Out of agony i drank jim beam.. again i planned to kill ppl but again that fucked up haji came and stab me... this time round spiderman came and save me but superman got jealous and killed batman... Upon gettin to know batman's death, robin got very furious and killed wonderwoman... mickeymouse turned up to wonderwoman's funeral and he found out tat hulk and minniemouse had some kinda scandal goin on...In the end everyone lived happily ever after.. THE END!!!

Done by

MR Elamaran

2009-07-17T08:05:00.001-07:00

Sometimes people just forget.
It's nobodys fault, it just happens.
So I don't hold it against you.
When you left I knew you would forget, they always do.

2009-07-16T23:52:00.000-07:00

2009-07-16T23:39:00.000-07:00

hmm
2 pod=)
pod-post operation day

breakfast-custard
lunch- tofu soup
dinner-idly

today met thanusiya and priya..
they came over to visit me=)
took photos..
sang karaoke
hmm then dance..

met kayyathri and maran near my granny house=)
thanks kayyathri 5 hl milk and yakult..

i super love my frenssss=)
i miss sugar plus siva..
no calls frm them=)

now confrencing with
kayyathri
maran
priya.r
priyashalini
mavin
rias
jeevan
faiz...
super funny=)

2009-07-15T20:02:00.000-07:00

Mummy woke me up like 7 in the morning..
she was scarring me..
telling me that i wont b able to speak after the opt..
so i was talking to her..
then she left 4 wrk..
i got up and went to get dressed=)
Daddy was slow..
was waiting 4 him..

i reach the dental clinic at 9.08am
then it was the usual routine of temperature taking and all..
i went in the room
the dentist, Dr. jeevan welcome me with a wide smile in his face..
went i ly down i saw three big needles waiting 4 me..
then the dentist put all three injections
the first 1 was bearable..
the last two was super pain..

After that i waited like 10 mins.
For it to get numb
i couldnt coordinate my lips and eyes..
super UNGLAM..
then starts the surgery..

i saw the big weapons and i gt scared..
lucky the dentist used a face mask to cover my eyes..
tears just come down..
super pain...
seriously..
when my mothe called i couldnt talk..
super pain only cry..
so embarresing

but i got 6 days mc..
but gonna miss sch..
thaslim and priya came at 4 to visit me..
thaslim was ike my mummy..
she fed me mushroom soup
priya was helping her..

later on maran and kumaran joined us..
there were companying me..
super nice of them..
but they were making of the way i spoke too..
haha..
1 day down..

2009-07-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

i am still waiting 4 ur reply..
seriously..
How long more?
i wanna hear frm u soon..

today i woke up like 4 am..
was so in pain
hmm my tooth was aching..
woke up daddy..
then he gave me some pain killers..
went to sch..
ate but tooth really pain..
went to the DENTIST..

Dr jeevan was there..
i sat down while he examined my tooth..
he was giving me a shock..
he said that all my right side tooth is sleeping..
the wisom tooth will affect my tongue eventually..
he said it was infected and filled wit pus..
he also said i had NO CHOICE but to undergo and operation..
seems small..
then he started telling the risks
-permenant numbness of
*cheek
*tongue
*lips
so it means i cant taste..
but he said thats the worst senario..
i hope nt..
i will be given at least 5 days mc..

so the opt is on the
15 july
9 am
denticare=(

2009-07-12T23:28:00.000-07:00

hmm went to sch for pda training..
just 4 1 hour plus and i earned like 20..
cool right..

then went to ics room..
suppose to have group meeting but cancel...
then i cleaned up ics room..
it was super dirty really!
was so satisfied..
went home like 2..
then priya and sugar said they were coming over..
then went to fetch priya wit sugar..
went sugar granny house
then ate guava..
went down to see her mummy..
went karus to eat idly..
hey parents were super nice..
i n priya were super shy..
i kept talking to her parents..
then we call kumaran and vinod kanna
they both had something on..
kayyathri and maran met us after that..

ghazzali came like 1 plus..
went down mac at 2 am to eat..
then we met faiz..
all came to my house at 5 am..
haha
faiz and ghazali left at 6.45 am..
then maran ang kayyathri left at 8..
i and priya slept together till like 10..
then my house had prayers
then we had a good veg lunch at home
yummy..
we had long talk with my uncle and aunty..
then went back to sleep at 4..
haha
priya left at 5 pm..
had a good day with damn..

Sadly alot of things happen..
he shouted at us but it affected me to most..
still not out of it=(...

2009-07-10T23:52:00.000-07:00

last day of att..
i went to meet siva and sugar at jurong..
hmm then suddenly siva told me that she meeting her fren..
she hiding lots of stuffs frm me..
but i hope she end up in good hands..
seriously if she is sad i will be more sad..
i love her lots

then went to see priya at sch...
haha
she super cute..
i keep telling her 10 mins and made her wait like an hour..
poor gal..
thaslim joined us later after her meeting..
then i
thaslim
kavidha
priya
sugar
sarah
had a long talk..
some ppl accuse us of gossiping but they don really know what we were talking..
they kayyathri joined us..
i n thaslim keep speaking in malay..
funny sia..
we keep talking in double meaning..
priya super slow but super cute..
then we went cheers to eat..
we eating plus talking
till like 10..
after a long time seeing them..
then we planned to walk..
every1 left except 4
priya
sugar
thaslim
kumaran
maran
kayyathri
all the gals started walking except 4 kayyathri..
we had a long chat..
later i took cab back..

some ppl are just so insensitive..
if they wanna say anything they shld just say straight into ppls face..
nt go tell others..
its so stuppid to go tell the persons close frens abt that person..
u will slowly loose ur frens if u keep doing that..
i am so sorry 4 the person 4 having such an attitude..

i was hoping n praying hard that it should not happen again..
but it did..
i blaming myself for it..
i didnt listen to any1..
now i fall again..
but i m nt giving up so early...
cause i TRUST..

2009-07-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

it hurts me like crazy..
don u understand..
i just cant bare to see those things happening in front of my eyes..
even though there is nth between us..
Sorry=(
just don do it in front of my eyes

2009-07-08T07:17:00.000-07:00

A girl just asked me to be her GIRLFREN...
what the hell?
First time in my life...
ppl say that a girl will understand another girl better..
HAHA
thats the last resort i guess..

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and
It means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses,
You build up a whole suit of armor,
So that nothing can hurt you,
Then one person, no different from any other person,
Wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day,
Like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends'
Turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.”

2009-07-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.

2009-07-06T05:52:00.000-07:00

Will be right here waiting=(
It HURTS..
trying...

2009-07-05T00:09:00.000-07:00

An unforgetable day yest..
yest morning mummy woke me up and told me she is bringing me 4 pedi..
i was super excited..
i woke up cleaning the house..
she took a punjabi suit and started ironing it..
then i was so curious y ?
she said we were gg temple..
aiyoh..

then i gt dressed in traditional clothes and end up gg temple
After temple i went to Ghandis to eat..
Ate really alot...
A place u can really eat alot..

then came back home to give food for daddy..
mummy wantted to go lot 1..
so i had a 1 min change into my jeans and all..
after that suppose to meet Frens for movie..
i and mummy went 4 a walk then we went ljs ate chocalate cream..
then i went to meet Jeevan at yishun..

i and Jeevan had a long talk..
haha..
then we meet rias at city hall..
then we decided to go plaza sing..
haha
so we went to meet kavi and haji at dhoby gaut..
we call kaya3 and asked he to join us..
she said she was coming..
while waiting 4 her we 5 ate long john..
so we were waiting for her and maran..

after maran and kaya3 come we went fort canning park..
hmm played swing..
just basically slack there..
a nice day..
Then we met FAIZAL..
haha
after a very long time..
talk to him..
then all left like 1045..
was meeting bro at dhoby gaut..
he came like 11..
jeevan and maran followed us back..

Parents meet the 4 us under the block..
then went back..
nth much at home to do..
we were finding 4 movie to watch..
later we fall asleep like 4 am..
jeevan and maran left at 8 plus and i cont. sleeping..

Happy birthday Siva..
i love u alot girl
we know each other 4 nearly 6 to 7 years..
friendship still growing..
we have lots of ups and down..
i was touch wen u cried for me and all..
those days always in my mind..
we never 4get u darling...=)

2009-07-03T23:10:00.000-07:00

Please curse and swear at me
So i can hear your voice

Please call me names
so i know I’m not nameless

Please make me cry
so i know you still care

Please hate me
so i know I’m not invisible

Please cut me
so i wont feel numb

Please let me die
so i know i was alive

sometimes things don end up the way u want it to be=(
u would just hope 4 the best..
LIKE ME!!!

2009-07-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

After finishing att went back home=)
suprise!!
then went home to change..
left home..
saw hema akka..

then took like while to decide where to go..
so we went to catch a movie(after a very long time)
then we were sitting at pond..
till i had a call from my palace=)
reached home like 1045pm

tmr afternoon
yippie
can sleep longer...

2009-06-30T16:34:00.000-07:00

MORNING SHIFT!!
sleepy plus sick..
renukha misses school..
but ward 63 is fun...

now time is 4.15..
planning to sleep now!!
good night..

2009-06-29T19:41:00.000-07:00

MY GOD!!
ATT STARTED=)

cant wait 4 it to end..

went to school..

ate in alumni with

kayathri
maran
jeevan
rias
bala..
suppose to meet kumaran but he left for home...
left shortly after that..
was so tired..
glad i saw themm..

2009-06-28T23:19:00.000-07:00

Today celebrated my brothers bdae=)
had to do prepare lotss..
so tired also..
puppy woke me up then asked me to help him..
then i realise my bro was sleeping...
so irritating...

PARTY STARTED=)
rias
maran
kayathri
came first to help out.
they help to deco the house...
so nice of them..
bro frens came down..
then normal stuff..
cut cake
Dance floor
an unprepared 1..
then kumran and ghaz joined us and rias had to leave..

Then it was past midnight
we started gambling wit the adults...
hehe
hmm i was playing together wit my father..
he left the table..
then i and maran played together..
we won like 18 dollars..
then after changing banker we lost 8..
but still at the end we had 10 dollars in hand..

Around 5 am we all were sleepy..
so we were sleeping in the hall..
maran
kumaran
ghaz left like 10..
i kayathri went to my room to sleep longere..
woke up like 3 plus..
then gamble again..
haha
then went to send kayathri..

Came back got dressed..
went to my uncle house..
my sis gt engaged..
another 1 in the family..

Tomoro att!!
gonna miss my frens..
spend two weeks wif them..
I MISS U GUYS ALREADY=)

2009-06-26T22:53:00.000-07:00

my holidays was nth but full of fun..
wed
went to maran house wit
surren
m.kumaran
mavin
siva
priya
thanusiya
vinod kanna
To meet kayyathri priyalatha thaslim and maran..

we then went to sheng shiong to do our shopping..
haha..
went ecp..
a day full of fun..
swam till 12 midnight alll..
something i hhave never done b4 in my life..
haha
night that i will never 4get..
jeevan ghazli muzamil surren all joined us..
more things happen..
but haha
i shall not blog abt it..

thursday
in the morning we all left east coast..
we had agm..
so we all went to maran house to rest and have our shower...
his house look like some wedding house=)
every1 dressing up and all..
haha
we went to sch!!
we had AGM
then wen were planning wat to do..
so we went to ics room
all slep like till 1am...
then we went to 7 11
then went bernerd house..
alot of things happen..
then came back sch
more things happened..
then all of tried to sleep..
thanks to those brave ones arnd us!!

friday
woke up at 12 plus..
then all of us without bathing when makan place..
smelly smelly..
the guys were so cute when they were drunk..
esp jeevan=)
we watch them place soccer..
haha
funny ppl=)
came back like 1030 after 3 days of funness
love u guys many many

2009-06-25T16:49:00.000-07:00

i m packing for wed thursday fri!!!
haha
super excited=)

2009-06-24T04:42:00.000-07:00

Monday!!!
it started well..
went to sch 4 jg meeting
had commitee meeting at 1.30
then had jeeva gaanam commitee meeting 3.30pm
then followed by going for open meeting at 6 pm...
whole day!!
meetings after meetings
but super fun!!

meeting ended at 6..
all of super bored
so planned to sneak out..
OOOPSS=)
parents slept like 11.30pm
11.45 my bro n i left hme..
went to meet kayyathri and maran
we went to sch..
then slack there
was againg bored so we walk to sunset 711.
the we went to the suspended rail way track..
was scary..
then they came to my house..
we watch movie..
ended all sleeping..
all slept till 11..
then maran and kayyathri left!!

2009-06-19T10:21:00.000-07:00

2009-06-18T22:14:00.000-07:00

ITS my bro birthday..
he is turning 16!!
every1 getting older..
haha

i always have fun..
morning went swimming...
was getting darker so decided to get out of water..
so we decided to go sch
went to sch a while..
slack there..
left..

went back home

todays suprise..
mummy COOKED

briyani
mutton ketchup
dalcha
fried chicken..

brothers bdae special..
ate and the keft to temple..
was weird itting in the templ cause din go 4 very long..
i took arathi.,,
super nervous

cuz sis wedding this sunday..
so went to her house..
all praparing all..
was so nice seeing every1 helping 1 and another..
tomorow bangle ceremony..
excited!!!=)

2009-06-18T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIKNESHWARAN..=)

2009-06-17T12:01:00.000-07:00

DAY 3

went to sch..
met

priya
vinod
siva
rias
thaslim
maran

then we clean ics rm..
maran took down the white board...
then gt 3 lizard..
so ugly plus retard looking lizards..
damn scary..
maran pushed me to the lizards..
i was so scared..
lizards are so ewww!!!
then left sch early..

meeting them make my day..=)

2009-06-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

DAY 2

i was late as usual..
went to meet siva..
then got scolded..
then after that went to meet the rest at west coast..
as usual all the others late..

CAMERA PLUS PHONE SPOILED..
SO FUSTRATED..
but din affect me much..
was enjoying myself

priya
siva
thaslim
maran

went to west coast park to eat mac..
we suppose to walk to hort park..
the whether was super hot..
irritating seriously
so we decided to take bus
sorry thaslim..
then we went to henderson wave..
first time there..
we walked to kaya3 house..

we decided to watch aruthadi..
nice movie..
then we made ourself like home in her house..
she made 4 us nuggurts and fries..
nice of her..
later she fed me priya and maran..

we had to attend meeting so we left 4 school..
we heard lot of things frm the seniors..
we learn frm it..

then neeting was 4 so long..
i was trying my best to sit still..
IMPOSSIBLE..
then went back home...

IT WAS A FUN DAY!!!

2009-06-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

DAY 1

priya
kayathri
siva

all of us wen kaya3 house..
had so much fun cooking..
we made fried rice..
priya and me had no exp cooking..
she cut the chillies all..
super cute..
she had lots of UNGLAM photos..
we had so much of fun..
we wante to meet thaslim..
we told he to come my place..
then we called maran and muzamil to come..

so on the way we brainstorming 4 ideas to suprise maran..
we bought cake..
went to shop and save and buy chikin..

we tried our best to suprise him..
haha..
very funny he and his reaction...

karthi
vinod
muzamil
maran
priya
thaslim
priya

all ate together in my house..
we went down to play swing..
photos after photos..
we went to the park link to sit..
then all left
it was a FUN DAY after all..
enjoyed it..

2009-06-15T22:05:00.000-07:00

2009-06-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

HMM

puppy already paid for my BILL...

YIPPIE..

from now onwards i gonna control my bill as i promise him..

was too bored at hme...

so decided to go danz arena..

i saw lots of my sec sch frens...

MEMORYS

really miss those times..

i talked to some of them..
some i just could smile..

too shy to talk..=(

all grown up...
didnt expect to see him.

all things happen for a reason..

i can say i m much happier now..

i know e the world way much better..
i love the way life is now=)

no REGRETS...

2009-06-12T23:03:00.000-07:00

Today was the last day of my papers..
sch filled with so much of excitment and all..
went to queensway with

priya
mavin
maran
gayathri
vinod
thaslim

maran and mavin wanted to buy shoes..
so we companied them..
while they were buying shoes we were eating kathong laksa
so little u know..
so angry

went back to sch..
while the guys went to play soccer the girls wanted to do something sporthing
priya and me went jogging all the way to sunset and back
on our way back we went to sunset park to do cruches
150 crunches..(no joke)

after that we played captains ball..
it started raining...
all gathered back to the ics room
then we planeed to go 4 night walk

mavin
rias
maran
vinnie
ghaz
surren
kumaran
priya

we were walking around sch but lights were on
we went to see the seniors dance
a while later left
reach home like 10.30..
now playing crazy taxi..
gonna have gd sleep=)

2009-06-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker...

2009-06-11T20:11:00.000-07:00

today we were watching movie in sch..

tmr exam but haha cannot resist

we book a room in the lib

after that as usual...

hungry

so CUP NOODLES...=)

I just close my eyes because I might see your face.I just close my ears because I might hear of you, but I could not close my heart because I love you..

saw this in the net=)
find it nice..

2009-06-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

This game gonna end REAL soon..
WAIT and SEE..

2009-06-08T09:21:00.000-07:00

HARD DAY..
was difficult facing every1..
managed to..
then was very upset..

went to the lib..
saw him sitting,
went to sit beside him..
he did not even utter a word..

then we left to dhoby gaut..
he walk to fast..
i wanted to talk but was unsure hw his reaction would be..
then i was mood out..
rias kepp asking me why i was like tat..
i gave no answer...

NOWDAYS, i just wanna be ALONE..

went swensens wit

pratheep
sarah
kisho
farook
dinesh
lavanya

things are not the same anymore...
i wonder why...
not a lil upset but alot..
i need some1s shoulder to cry lungs out..
but..
nothing..

had a long day..
but was sure that i wasnt myself..
i am sorry if i spoiled any1s mood cause of it..

i love u guys lots..
u ppl mean lots to me..
as i always say, i wont do this again..
pls beleive in me..

2009-06-07T22:17:00.000-07:00

Sometimes things don go your way..
THATS TRUE..
now every1 knows abt it..
ppl keep saying that they are DISAPPOINTED with my action..
they don know that it HURTS so BADLY when they say that..
i cant do anything but just walk away..
did they once thought why i did such a stupid thing..
THEY DON KNOW...-(CAUSE I FOREVER FAKING A SMILE..=) )

i cant speak out..
tried my best..
seriously..
i am not myself anymore...
i cant be hyper like how i was..
this feeling just sux..
i donno...
ppl nt giving me face and talk wat i did..
MY FAULT THOUGH..
the only words i can say is
I am so SORRY..
i PROMISE not to do it anymore..

2009-06-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

i no more deserve u..
disappointed..
i jus wanna say 3 words...
I AM SORRY=(
forgive me pls...
will u?

i wanna cry it out...
seriously...
hurts so badly..
worst then anything..
i hate this..

2009-06-05T21:27:00.000-07:00

Today was a day i ll nvr 4get..
we did no think abt the consequences..
i donno y i did it..

i couldnt take it wen she cried..
i couldnt control myself
why must things end up this way..

i donno how i going to face those ppl..
i nvr gonna talk to him*..
i think i disappointed him the second time..
i always talk to him abt my problems and all..
i am sad that i have no one to talk my problems out..
i just cant face u!!!

i wanna burry myself..
i just cant take this..
this is not wat i want..

thanks to all who took care of us..
i am sorry gayathri 4 nt plaing captains ball...
i am sorry for making all of u all irritated cause of our stupid actions..

2009-06-03T20:59:00.000-07:00

2009-06-03T09:48:00.000-07:00

today was a very fun day..
sch ended at 1..
had to do the nr thing..
after that went to ics room
all wanted to go kfc..
but i miss LJS..
so in the end went KFC..

renukha
siva
thaslim
pratheep
rias
suganthi
gayathri
priyalatha

my dear fren siva had a plan for fri..
so i planned to do it wif her..
so we went to check out the price for our budget.
then went up to kfc..
then we were comparing prices all
then the GIRLS went down to experiment and all...
then we decided to buy..

then THE GIRLS finished it..
we went bernerds house..
we saw people there..
damn fun..
then we wanted to walk out..
then while walking we wanted some adventure..
we started walking..
we shouted all kinds of nonsense..
then we went through the lane..
saw big big houses..

The houses were super big..
we went to an extend to tell the 'owner' that we are architecture students and all..
then we all wanted to buy those kind of houses went we grow up..
haha
if it was possible..

we went back to sch..
to so call study..
studied for a while..

renukha
thaslim
gayathri
maran
rias
ashwin
vivegan
anand

then at 9 after studying we were playing who was the stongest..
we were making them carry us and all..
haha
all were equally strong...

And then we went to the bustop..
as usual sily mistakes..
kept laughing..
tickling each other and all...

tmr we planning to go gym and and jogging..
super fun..

mood out=(

2009-06-01T20:33:00.000-07:00

worst day of 2009..
donno wat to do?
its a problem tat I was keeping in me for a very long time..
noone will ever know I m suffering frm a problem like this..
I feel like gg to a field nearby to shout out everything..
exams coming..
fought wif him..
I shouldn't have..
it was my fault..
I promise nt to do tat again..
trust me..

NO COMMENTS=(
I donno hw I gg to survive without it...lets see

2009-06-01T20:00:00.000-07:00

step 1: find a lepak! spot
step2: decide weather u wan lepak alone or wif frens
step3: clear head off all wories
step4: tak it easy
njoy e hapenings ard u

haha...
He told me this..
So nice of him..

today was a super fun day...
had seafood with family...
good food...but came home and felt giddy..
i got scolded 4 eating so full..
AIYOH...
just finished my NR..
gonna go to bed...
nights ppl

2009-06-01T10:49:00.000-07:00

its hard=(
I m trying...
ppl stop telling me abt it...
I know wat I m doin...

2009-05-31T01:05:00.000-07:00

Our Love
Loves memory has traced our outline in this place.
But will the spider remember, or the sun?
Did the water capture our faces in permanence?
Does the wind create us anew as it blows?
Did the shadows from the trees record our passage beneath them?
Our secret been revealed.Yet I have told no other.
I write these words in silence, in mute testimony To what once was.
But our image remains alive in this place.
It can not be removed.
You, me,
We then,
Were here.
We saw the day and hoped for tomorrow.
We caught a brief glimpse of love's promise.
We were not liars, But thieves of time.
For now time has now forgotten us,
Yet our memory lingers,
and love remembers
This place that was ours.

wats wrong...

2009-05-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

wats wrng...
why is life so unfair???
not only 4 me..
ppl around me tooo..
i wanna go mars..
stay alone there..
just me alone..

I am just not myself...=)
I am putting a mask for myself..
It is time to take it out..
I dont see the point..
I hope I could be who I was before..

2009-05-26T08:04:00.001-07:00

Time may take us apart,
that's true,
but I will always be there for you.
You're in my heart,
you'll be in my dreams,
no matter the miles between.=)

2009-05-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

hmm today sch finish at 6..
super tiring
sch filled wit rivision and stuff...
aiyoh...
cant take this

went ics room..
hungry...
now days super hungry
np could not writhdraw cash...
i n rias went sim

left with
rias
renukha
gayathri
maran
ghaz
jeevan

just listening to songs and all...
left sch like 10..
reached hme 1030..
so sleepy..
planning to sleep soon

todays mistakes
burger-beggar
book-blook

2009-05-20T08:43:00.000-07:00

2009-05-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

today was a very fun day...
sch ended like 5 pm..
went ics(the usuaul thing)
all ate without me
i was hungry and had a feel to eat mac
so i asked arnd..
all din reply except rias
then after that rias asked arnd again..
some decided to follow....

so went to eat mac..
then we went to BERNERDS HOUSE

GHAZ
MARAN
MUZZAMIL
KARTHI
RENUKHA
VANITHA
KAYAATHRI
GAYATHRI

WE WENT TO EXPLORE THE HOUSE...
YIPPIE
super spooky toooo
gt smell all

ANAND
RIAS
SUGAR
was waiting 4 us outside
then i ghaz and kayathri walked to shell station..

like 2045 i left the place wit kayathri..
she followed me home
then we went PASAR MALAM...waaah
there was nothing there
i bought food to eat...
bought present 4 mavin....

2009-05-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

todai i was not really feeling well...
tried my best to sleep but vivegan did not let me...
then i was so grumpy
managed to sleep then came my ice cream..
had to wake up..
had project meeting
i managed to seat throughout the meeting...
yuppieee!!!

as usual slacked at ice rm after sch..
glancing through the pics of 2007/08

LEFT WIT:
me
jeevan
maran
gayathri
kayathri

ate cup noodlessss...yay!!!!
was craving 4 it 4 a very long time
we were talking so many stories and all while eating

TODAYS MISTAKES:
chit kat chunky-kit kat chunky
curlfew-curfew

2009-05-18T18:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday i woke up late for sch..
had to cab down..
was nt on time
then vinod called me...
he met me and gave me 3 ROSES...
haha..
damn cute la he..
then i sugar brought indran shawn vinod to our lecture theatre..
they were lost listening to the lecture..
while i and sugar doing our own work they were listening to dr sng giving lecture..

then went ics room during break..
suddenly,when we were eating our advior came in...
super funny..
he ask us lots of ques..
like
why the room gt smoke smell
why the wall got hole?
and all those things
when he asked maran why we haven dispose the sofas maran said that we gg to donate it..
i cannot stop laughing
the sofa in such a condition and he wanna donate it...
aiyoh

celebarated kavi birthday...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAVI..
but couldnt get invovled in the suprise cause had mc meeting

then was at ics room till 8 plus..
mummy called and told me to come uncle house..
suppose to follow jeevan in 171
but had no choice..
then took 52 wit indran vinod and maran..
all of us walked in e direction of granny house..
then they went off...
when i reached there my mum called me and tell that she was in another uncle house..
so had to take another bus there..
when i went to the bustop i met them...
i was sitting alone in the bustop..
they said i looked like a begger..

then went to meet mummy
ate ikan bakar(YUMMY!!!!)
then she and my auntie was making fun or the roses i gt
they were telling me the meaning 4 the 3 roses..
even the shop auntie was making fun of me..
then was sitting in uncle house doing my MUM'S assignment
I and MUMMY have the same due date for our assignment..
AIYOH!!!
reached hme like 0035..
showered and sleep at 0100

2009-05-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

RENUKHA-ASS
SARAH-ARMPIT
PRATHEEP-ARMPIT HAIR
DINESH-ARSE
RIAS-APPENDIX
KISHO-ANAL

2009-05-16T18:13:00.000-07:00

2009-05-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

Today is vijays birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIJAY!!!!
may ur wishes come true

we went ECP to celebrate his birthday..
vinod
indran
maran
kisho
rias
thaslim
ramizah
ghazali
nandini
shawn
kumaran
sugar
shorini
kesh
jasmin
vivegan
dinesh
ghaz
mei chen
muzzamil
if i missed out any1 sorry k...
very funny...the guys were practically stripping each other..
haha
we left the place like 9.30 pm
sorry rias 4 making u wait so long doin nth...
we must go SENTOSA together 1 day

2009-05-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

SUBRA is not feeling well...
he shld recover...
he ask me to blog that he is a wonderful guy...
may be he his...
HEHEHE

2009-05-15T06:39:00.000-07:00

HMM i think some things must be clear...
i hated sugar and she hated me..
now we love each other..
we fight or we love each other its our prob...
why SOME PPL taking it as if its their prob..
if i don like u i will just tell u..
i donno hw to act all really...
if u don like me babe just tell...
it hurts to know sm1 u think like u actually hates u..

HMM2 next,
after everything over sm1 have to go tell ppl that things did not wrk out..
LET IT BE LA..
why now wanna start everything again..
i wanna say wat i feel...
things did not wrk out cause i beleve we did nt put our heart and soul in it..
i m happy at least we spend so much time together..
i have those memories wit me and i wont 4get them..
can take everything AWAY frm me, but those memories are in me
i m no more angry or sad that things did not wrk out
i love the way it is now...
ppl pls don take tat away toooo!!!

what a day...?
just disturb..
ppl pls grow up
we are in ngee ann polytechnic not ngee ann sec...
(look who is talkin, hehe)

MAVIN sorry if u are angry wit me..
SARAH i miss u
PRATHEEP sorry i din order kfc 4 u
SIVA sorry if i din send u to class
SUBRA book out ready, enjoy!!!!
KISHO all the best...
DINESH glad i saw u
LAVANYA lets go holland again
KARTHI U ARE VERY NICE
MUZAMIL annae!!!

2009-05-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

2009-05-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

2009-05-14T07:37:00.001-07:00

HMM
TODAY i had lots of fun...
went to sch...
ate first..
p was very quiet today..(NOT FUN)
ANAND was extreamly noisy..
KISHO was nice(nvr disturb me much)
MAVIN called me sooru
MY DINESH DARLING angry cause i din reply..

Then went to see sashi
with
GAZZALI
RIAS
SHAWN
DEVAN
MARAN
ANAND
THANU
PRIYA
GAYATHRI
AZLEENA

first time out wif yr 1s...
but as usual fun
HOPE SASHI IS ALL RIGHT...
HE WILL BE...

Went to eat at kopitiam..
damn funny,,,
we were fighting 4 rojak and coke
Got free rojak by chindy..

2009-05-13T07:22:00.000-07:00

"MACHAAN MACHAAN I LOVE U"

2009-05-13T06:46:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS A SUPER FUN DAY....
In the morning went sch..
FUN day!!!
I SAW KARTHI MARAN MAVIN CLEAN THE ROOM
super funny
then i help themm...
they all damn bad, the put their sweat on me..
eeeee....
but they are very gd ppl!!!

but then came dinesh graduation day...
take so many pics..
i graduated tooo...
hmm then we went went HARRY'S..

I LOVE PRATHEEP,SARAH,DINESH,LAVANYA,FAROOK,KISHO,MAVIN.....
super fun....
ermmmm...
strong bo
vodka redbull
strawberry magarita

they keep making fun of me
I NT DRUNK...
pls believe me

2009-05-12T08:21:00.000-07:00

I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you...

2009-05-11T19:26:00.000-07:00

today was a super fun day...
went for break at 1..
saw all the yr 1s..
ALL SKIPPED CLASSSS...
played so many games..
charades
pattuku patttu
ball catch
quary
super fun.

at night went 4 dinner wit family
mothers day celebrations..
had assignments to do..
then slept

i gonnaa miss pratheep and dinesh...
1 gonna graduate 1 going ns..
no more fun laaaa....
must tell them don go...

2009-05-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

CAMP WAS SUPER FUN!!!
too tired will blog when i am super free...

2009-05-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

I REALLY MISS THE TIMES WE SPENT TOGETHER =(
those memories still HAUNTING me...
HELP ME PPl!

(but i just don want everything to dissappear cause i really love those moments even though it ended so soon..but at least every1 is happier now i shall try to be happier too..)

i am sorry but i have to say this..

2009-05-04T09:30:00.000-07:00

SARAH ROCKS MY WORLD=)

2009-05-04T09:18:00.001-07:00

SUGAR RENUKHA LOVES UUUUU=)

2009-05-03T07:20:00.000-07:00

"i tried erasing all the memories, the photos and the messages but sad to say it was all saved in the HEARTdrive=)"

2009-05-03T07:19:00.000-07:00

2009-05-03T07:17:00.001-07:00

ALOT OF ASSIGNMENTS TO DO!!!!
OMG
had lots of fun..
went religious class as usuals..
came bak ate n sleep...
haha

then now doing assignments..

just now i took a pic of me in a super min slipper...
haha..super random too...=)

2009-05-02T07:10:00.000-07:00

went swensens..
lots of fun..
really ate alot...

uncle was extreamly funny today..
he was saying i have monster in me..
cause i was eating more then usual..
that shocked him..

i realise that i eat more when i am depressed..
haha=)

2009-05-02T06:48:00.000-07:00

2009-05-01T09:51:00.000-07:00

2009-05-01T09:46:00.000-07:00

was super bored at home...
woke up at 3pm...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIANA...
was trying to find her num to go 4 the party..
but bad luck...
cant find...

went out wit the USUALS...
we miss the rest..
they were busy so i sarah manjan and pratheep went out..
we r the USUALS

haha wanted to eat swensens but didnt
we had lots of fun took pics alll...
i just love hanging out wit them...

THEY ROCK MY WORLD...
i love u guys....

2009-05-01T01:57:00.000-07:00

2009-04-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

today we were collecting money for recriutment camp...
very fun...
skipped class..
but promise nt to do that again...
haha

then went back home...
super tired...

YEAH!!!
long weekend...
renukha gonna sleep sleeep sleeeep....
hehe=)

2009-04-29T08:46:00.000-07:00

2009-04-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

when to acer to collect my adapter...
when imm 4 lunch wit sugar n ganga...
damn fun...
sugar kissed me...

had ics meeting...
lots of qustions was asked..
but it is all 4 our own good...

2009-04-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

normal school day...

hanis came lecture...

took photo...

she is so fun to disturb...

hmm went alameen

wit rias maran dinesh kisho anand pratheep sarah n vivegan

so obvious things haven change yet...

i seriously hope it will

mum just pop up...

so shocking...

but she left AFTER A WHILE...

2009-04-27T05:41:00.000-07:00

Ics meeting was so fun..
Some yr 1s were so hyper..
hope they all are coming 4 camp...
i belief camp will be a success..

Had to talk things out...
was difficult to hear and see all those things...
must it be that way...
it really hurt me alot, but its k..
its all in the game...haha

thanks to my councellor SARAH LITHYA...

SARAH LITHYA
i hope i knew u long time ago..
i hope i can see u more often..
have fun wit u like always...
u keep me gg...

PRATHEEP
i know u since yr 1...
i know u more now..
now i know who my good frens are..
i know u care for me..
i donno abt u but u are one my closest fren..
thanks for being there when i needed u..

RIAS
i know u alot...
i always share my problem wit u...
i love u annae..
u never fail to make me smile..
u know me very well..'u are 1 of those i show my anger to..
i hope u don mind..
i am sorry if i made u angry...

KISHO
firstly i am very sorry abt the way i treated u at first..
u know wat i mean..
hahah..
but as i always tell u, u are my closest buddy
i need u by my side
we may have arguements, don bother
we shld always forgive and forget..
thanks for being there even though i din treat u well in the beginning

SIVAGAL
babe, to tell u the truth i love u lots...
in sec sch we might not be close but now i think we are..
it hurts when u don tell me things that are gg through in ur life
buut anyways its ur wish...
i love u lots
reallly..u are my best GALFREN ever..
OOPS did i tell that...

DINESH
never forgetting u...
never fail to make me laugh..
miss u lots
don work la....
come sch everyday can
haha
thanks 4 advicing and all...
i love u many many la...
my ---- FACE...
HAHA

MAVIN
even though we are nt very close but i think we are...
we had lots of fun of taking cab together...
thanks to our parents 4 giving us the same curfew time...
haha.. i think u are a very good fren mavin
i hope we could have more fun together..haha

VIVEGAN
u n ur jokes never ending k...
we eat together..
thanks 4 ur advice..
thanks 4 making me smile whenever i m down...
just 4 wat u said'i hate to see u down cause u not hyper ready"
i will nvr be down

DEVAN
mr President..
i not angry n i din cry cause of u k...
haha
wee need to talk lots of things..
like wat we plan everything will go smoothly k...
haha keep singing

ANAND
we may fight but haha..
u are my fren too k..
my chicken rice money where???
loosu...
sorry if i ever offended u...
but i think i thought to offend u
really>>>
if u don like it must tell k

KARTHI
haha..thabks 4 everything
when the AFFECTED person tag me u were damn cute
really...
just thinking of u make me laugh
really..
haha
waiting 4 camp...
we can have more fun together

GHAZ
haha..never forget u k...
i will never 4get that u bought me famous amos cookies...
and delievered it to NUH..
but now days, we not close ready
u very busy
so nvr mind..
u have fun k...

SUGAR
we just started spending time together...
we should more often...
i love u too

GANGa
not forgething u..
thanks for encouraging me
and tolerating all my nonsense in class..
love u ganga

HANNIS
i miss u
aiyoh...cannot disturb u in class ready..
at least we often see each other..

WANNIE
i donno wats wrnd but there is a gap between us
i hope it will disappear...
really..
I LOVE U WANIE

NURUL
cane we be like how we were..
really..
i miss the fun...
i hate the gap...
really
we must always be close

AMY
i miss sleeping overdays...
haha
we shall have more sleep overs...
haha

NAS MYTHALI KAVITHRAA NISHA
I LOVE U PPL..
THERE SHOULDNT BE A GAP WITHIN US ALSO
THANKS 4 BEING THERE

I DIN MISS OUT ANYONE...IF I DID I M SORRY...
I HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIO SHOULD LAST...
I LOVE U GUYS

2009-04-26T05:36:00.000-07:00

today morning i had to wake up
Drag myself to go religious class...
i know if i don go my mum will scream..
but saw my frens....
had lots of fun..

guess wat?
i failed my FTE..
but nvm...trying again..
its ok...

preparing for school tmr..
need too settle some camp matters tooo...
tmr is ICS MEETING for the recruits...
planning some games for tmr..

2009-04-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

i went 4 my cuzzies weeding...

damn fun...

new experience for me cause it was a punjabi wedding...

cool eh???

2009-04-25T04:14:00.000-07:00

life!!!

2009-04-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

is it supppose to be like this...
what the helll=(
i m trying my best to move on...
don make me think of all those bitter memories again agian..

i m not going to lie that i have move on but just trying to...
give me some time...
i also wont lie that it doesnt hurt and all those things..
obviously it does..

ppl think i am crazy now days...
so happy plus hyper
but no one can realise i am just covering the pain
just not showing anyone...
giving everyone a confident anwser i am moving on...

its nt aboout moving on..
it all about the pain he made me suffer..
he is torturing me without even knowing..

what a mask i am wearing...
don understand why some ppl just cant talk things out..
can they realise hw they making things worst for us
are they leaving only for themself..

think abt me once pls!!!